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What an inspiration! I cried like a baby……….LOL  It is amazing what miracles God can work through others. This guy must be changing hearts and leading souls to God with a message like this 🙂
Thank you God for showing us that such good can pour out of someone, even when others may have called it hopeless.
HT goes to Maureen – thanks!

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Nine ways of being an accessory to another’s sin.
1.By Counsel

2.By Command
3.By Consent
4.By Concealment
5.By Defense of Evil Done
6.By Partaking
7.By Provocation
8.By Praise
9.By Silence

When we examine our  conscience do we recall all the ways we have been an accessory to another’s sin?  Warning! When you do this God will show you truth and it will disrupt your life as you know it and you may loose friends and loved ones. But, God will heal and bring good of it. Jesus, I trust in you.

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How does the act of praying for others become vainglory for me? This isn’t a decision I make, or even notice as it is happening. I love praying for others. I really do — I can’t wait to have a quiet moment to say a rosary for the Christians being attacked in India and Iraq. I love to petition our Lord for others in need.  I love to feel like I am working with the Body of Christ and praying in union with so many others for the greater good. I especially love when I see God answering prayers. Either wanted or unwanted answers, either way I love to see his work being done — it may be a joyful answer to prayers or a sorrowful answer to prayers. Either way, his will is what I want.

Did you notice how many times I said “I” in the last few sentences! Lately I have been praying for an understanding of suffering and to understand humility more. God is good and smacked me 🙂

I went to an Abortion Clinic to pray for the first time last week. A wonderful friend of mine took me and my 2 kids with her and her kids. As I prayed, I was distracted by myself asking God to send us the face of someone who needs help. I didn’t think to ask this…it just popped in my head.  I know that for me, sometimes it is nice to see a face of a person you are praying for. Selfish, but human. I was thinking at that moment of a scared young mother, a woman in a crisis pregnancy or maybe a woman who is in a financial crisis. For the life in a mother’s womb that God allowed to be there and touched himself at the moment of conception by placing the soul there, he wants to gift the world with that life made in his own Image. Now, I am in no way prepared to be a sidewalk counselor. But I was with someone who’s mother is, so I knew we could refer anyone in need to someone who could help. As this thought of putting a face to my prayer entered my head… I dismissed it because I know that it is silly to ask this, so I just ended the thought with…”Sorry God, I didn’t mean to ask that of you, I want only your will.”

As we were getting ready to leave, a woman stopped to yell something at us. With out thinking for a second I answered “No, it’s not…it is God’s work” I don’t know if it is a good example to say anything back…it just came out. I am sure God is going to help refine me in these matters. But, there it was. My face that I prayed for, only not at all what I had thought of. I am busy praying for the mothers and the babies, they need it. But what about the angered people out there, the workers, the doctors, the security guards. If they didn’t have employees they couldn’t continue the work of evil, this culture of death. Pray for the workers of abortion agencies. After all, it is easy to pray for those we love or feel for — but what about our enemies, people who hurt us, betray us, cause harm to us or others. This is just like what Jesus teaches us in Luke 6

“But to you who hear I say, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.
To the person who strikes you on one cheek, offer the other one as well, and from the person who takes your cloak, do not withhold even your tunic.
Give to everyone who asks of you, and from the one who takes what is yours do not demand it back.
Do to others as you would have them do to you.
For if you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them.
And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do the same.
If you lend money to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit (is) that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, and get back the same amount.
But rather, love your enemies and do good to them, and lend expecting nothing back; then your reward will be great and you will be children of the Most High, for he himself is kind to the ungrateful and the wicked.
Be merciful, just as (also) your Father is merciful.

That was my first lesson in humility. To want to see what I want even in the midst of being prayerful is an act of pride. To even think that I would have any idea who my prayer would be offered up for is almost an act of disobedience to the Holy Spirit.  I hope I will learn to say in service to God “Take my prayer for good to be done through only your Divine Will, not my ownl”

 Then, this morning I was was reading Catholic Culture’s Saint of the Day, and admiring Waltzing Matilda’s coloring pages. I loved the St. Bruno coloring page. We are part German, so we are happy to learn more about St. Bruno and the Carthusians. Which lead me to this site that Catholic Culture linked too. I love the pics and I can’t wait for the movie to be shown on EWTN about the Carthusians. That is when I clicked on this pic

I had never been to this site and I don’t know much about it, but the pics or breathtaking. As I looked at the pic I was admiring how beautiful yet simple it is. I thought to myself how glorious it would be to serve there and to spend a life in prayer. I noticed the dust on the gorgeous wood and how the light captured the scratches and dust on the floor. I admired the grand structure and the art, but the servant in me wanted to polish the wood! I thought what a treat to work and serve there saying prayers in silence and offering up your work to Our Lord. Then what a gift to see it all shine!  Here it is again! My selfish desire to serve God in the way that would be peaceful and fulfilling for me! Now, let me just say that when it is a suffering to me, I receive it and offer it up. It is the everyday stuff that is not a real suffering but more like an annoyance that I struggle with. This is how I am — I don’t complain when I am down right cold and it is clear that I have to be cold and to be tough about it. But, if I am a bit chilly and I don’t have to be — then I am a big ole baby! (like when hubby has the air on in the car, if he is hot and I am cold…oohh I am a bear about it!)
So here is my second lesson. It is easy to pray when you are hurt, scared, lonely or to pray when you are in a wonderful prayerful, peaceful moment. But, what about when I am cleaning up spilled tea when I warned it would spill, the dust on the mini blinds that I hate to clean,  when my kids are fussing and acting up while trying to have a peaceful moment saying the Rosary, or when a child brings you a can of pringles and by the time they get to you they have shaken it into a million tiny pieces? How about those little annoying sufferings, service and work? Do I thirst to make those moments shine like I wanted to do for the wood in the Carthusian room.
Who do I serve when I pray? Is it vainglory or charity? I know that God is polishing my scratches and hopefully I will have all my rough edges smoothed by the time God calls me home.
Or at least in time for me to joyfully serve Our Lord by offering up my house work in prayer and go get those mini blinds dusted and then not complain about it to my hubby and not fuss at my children to play nicely while I do my work. Seems I have been trying to learn this lesson for a while now! 

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Here are some articles/interviews I came across that I am pondering on (but not realted in the least):

Our roles (wives,husbands and parents)

FATHER JOHN CORAPI ON THE EUCHARIST AND BENEDICT XVI (from 2005)

Grace and Justification

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You know you are living the simple life when your kids are happy to sit forever just watching tiny sugar ants come through a little crack, then smooshing them.

 

(not to self, they aren’t going to go away on their own as longs as crumbs are picked up!)

 

 

 

 

“Hey mom, I think one just stood up and waved at me!”  Smoosh….poor little guy!

 

 

 

You know you are beginning the warning signs of MSO (Mom Spacing  Out)

When you go to put your almost 3 yr old in her pj’s and lift her shirt over her head, but it gets stuck. You think to yourself…..I know she has a kind of a big head..but dang….it can’t grow in one dayYANK…YANK!!  Then you hear her say “Mom…Buddom…Buddom!!!” Translation- Button, Button!!!  Oh…oops…that’s right,this shirt has a button in the back!  Poor daughter!!!  Bad mommy!

You know you are having another MSO moment when:

Son- “Mom, can I get a drink?”

Mom- ” Sure, you can have some T.E.A.” but don’t let your sister see, she has all ready had her tea for the day.

Daughter- “I want tea”

Mom- gasping in astonishment “How did she know I spelled that?”  wow, I must be doing a great job homeschooling if my almost 3yr old can spell !!!

Son- “Duh, the letter T alone says TEA!!”  

Mom- I am a Goober!

 

You know there will be no sympathy for you and temptation will not get easier. When you are coming home from the first meeting with your friends, doing the lightweigh program to loose weight, and your family calls you and ask you to stop at sonic for some strawberry malts on the way home! 

A wise man once said something like “Your loved one’s may be a pain in your side to help get you to overcome and to earn sainthood” LOL Father Corapi 🙂   I guess redemptive suffering can come in small ways too 😉 

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I woke up this morning to fix hubby’s breakfast at 6am.  My first thought was…why does he have to eat sausage, eggs and toast every morning…I want to go back to sleep.(was up till 2am playing catchup on my housework, lesson plans and peeking at blogs for inspiration)  I let out a sigh and MADE myself get out of bed, grumbling on the way to the kitchen. I made his breakfast and packed his lunch and ran around like a crazy fetching stuff to help him get out the door on time. (we forgot to get gas last night, so his commute time will be shortened because he will have to get gas.) I grumbled some more….then he was finally off.  I packed away the extra eggs and sausage to re-heat for the kids when they wake.  My first thought was finally…peace, I am going back to bed.  Then I looked at the dinner dishes from last night that were calling to me.  So, I started to begin dishes while I watched EWTN.  The Gospel reading was about the road to Emmaus, one of my favorites.  So, I left my nagging dishes and sat, watched and listened. 

It hit me how I am so blind in my walk with our Lord.  They had a long seven mile walk with him and didn’t recognize him.  They were complaining to him.  They were shocked that their chief priests turned Jesus over and had him crucified.  Then they said “they were hoping that he would be the one to redeem Israel”  Then talked to him about the women who reported they went to the tomb and didn’t see his body and saw angels that said he was alive. But they had gone to the tomb and found things just as the women said, but him they did not see.  Then Jesus was telling them how foolish they were, did they not believe what all the prophets spoke, and was it not necessary for Christ to suffer these things to enter his glory?  Then they got to Emmaus and asked Jesus to stay with them. He stayed, then Jesus gave the blessing and broke bread giving it to them. That was when they finally realized that it was Jesus. Then Jesus vanished from them! They ran back to tell the eleven and said that they recognized Jesus in the breaking of the bread.

This really hit me hard!  Do I recognize my Lord with me on my long walks through the day? Do I see how when I serve my family…that I am serving him.  Would I grumble…if JESUS asked me to fix him sausage and eggs?  How about when I want to go back to sleep?  Would I grumble to myself when I had to get out of bed to serve him?  Or when I try not to wake the kids cause I just want them to sleep a bit more so I can steal some peace?  This is my 7 mile walk with the Lord….and I too don’t see him!  I too am complaining that I just want some peace sometimes, so I can sit, pray and “see” him. I too find myself not “seeing” him until the breaking of the bread. The redeeming gift he gives me when he consumes my soul the moment he is placed on my tongue at Holy Communion…..marveling…I think to myself…ahhh… how good it is to be with my Lord, finally…. Peace. Then when I hit the pew, there is my toddler shuffling hymnals, licking her shoes…(ick!!) and my 9 yr old giggling aloud at that sight. I give them both that mother’s glare with stern eyes…and then, it begins again.  The longing for that brief moment of peace, when he is with me.

I can “see” today, that he is always with me.  I am serving him when I grumble to get out of bed, when I run around like a crazy fetching things, when I scold giggling and licking  children in church.  He is there, that is my road to Emmaus with my blinders on.  God reaches out to be with me through my children, husband…all my duties. After all If I hadn’t listened to the dishes calling me and went back to bed… to steal a moment of peace, I wouldn’t have heard the Gospel today, reminding me that I can sometimes have my blinders on. Did God call out to me through dishes?….hhhmmmm  I need to take my blinders off and hear and see God in my daily duties as a mother.  I don’t have to feel him, I don’t have to see him. I just have to know he is there, always there in little ways, in my little life, on my little 7 mile walk to Emmaus.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings…I am off to wake the children and steal some kisses and finish those dishes!

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Birth Verse

Jessica posted her Bible verse on her blog and it got me to look at mine….very interesting, I must say.

My Bible Birth Verse is:

Proverbs 2:7 (this is the nab version)

He has counsel in store for the upright, he is the shield of those who walk honestly

This verse came from chapter 2- The Blessings of Wisdom

Wisdom is one of the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit. Some in this world today think it is something they can attain, or achieve on their own.  This is when it can can become pride, which to me is the deadliest sin because that is the sin that made Adam and Eve fall. 

Wisdom, therefore is very dangerous if you try to attain it on your own.  On the other hand, if it is God’s will to give someone this gift and they humbly accept, then it will bestow the blessings of freedom on that person and all who know him. Freedom from ignorance and lies, they will possess truth that will set them free, free from the bondage that sin can keep us in. 

There have been times of weakness in my life where I knew, that If I prayed for truth and searched for it, that I would indeed find it.  Finding it would mean I would have to face my battles and face the truth, and stop offending God.  There where times he was showing me truth and I turned as if I didn’t see. 

Satan’s favorite tool is pride.  It is so sneaky.  To believe that our interpretation of truth is ok, as long as you follow your own conscience then you will be ok….that is wrong.  Christ lived and died for his word, the truth to be known to us, that was his gift to us…his word will give us eternal life.  To follow our own conscience(if it not be in union with the Holy teachings) is like taking Christ’s gift and exchanging it for something you think is a better fit for you…..how terrible is that?  Who knows you better than your creator?  

This leads me to understand this verse all tied up in what wisdom really is, a gift….but it’s not all rosy…people with truth and wisdom don’t seem to be skipping through life with sunshine following them everywhere. Oh, there is going to be rain…that is for sure, but he will provide you with an umbrella 😉

He has counsel in store for the upright, he is the shield of those who walk honestly

It is not easy for the upright…that is what this is saying.  This is why he sends the message not to worry, that he will give you counsel. He wasn’t fooling when he gave us the message that he will shield you who accept the truth. Does that mean that it is easy…smooth  sailing?  Heck no!  That is why he prepares you by saying he will give you a shield…. he is saying bear down kid, it’s gonna be a tough ride

Isn’t that what any of us would do for our kids?  If any of my kids receive the gift of wisdom…will I say “wow, look at you”  nope I will be saying…grin and bare it, you’ll have to white knuckle it…there is gonna be a storm, but you’ll make it! With God’s grace, you’ll make it!

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